Omgoodness, I AM tired. Lol. Anyway, I need to sleep, but I just HAD to come to the library and actually do something! I have almost 300 deviations in my inbox and I don't have time to look at ANY of them right now. I am so SORRY that I haven't been able to even look at anything for about two weeks now, gahhh. Haha. It's funny and it's not at the same time. Hmmm. Okay, so, life updates.

Well, work has been monstrous, our house is stupid, and we have been looking for replacements for both. Just this morning I handed in my resignation letter to my current place of employment and that was taken fairly well...finances and what-not...and then I called around to a bunch of places in town and was almost hired on the spot for another job, rofl. SO! This may be good news. I will need to ask this general manager a bunch of particulars but it was one of those things where you just have a feeling to check back on this one place...and I think I'll like it. I hope. Haha, wish me luck on that one.

What instigated this sudden move? Well. Particulars, in short. Blind accusations and rude, abrasive, coarse back-biting that I don't appreciate at all. Over the past month and a half, it has happened at least four or five separate times that I can count and I didn't say a word until the last time, just this past night, when they finally asked for an explanation. Lol, I have been quietly stewing over such things for a while.

There has been a general lack of understanding and accusing me of certain things when they never even researched the situation and these past few times have been awful.

Reason #2: I haven't been able to save money for school. Nuff said. That carries its' own weight.

Reason #3: Finances again. I'm barely coping on what they were giving me, and I think they were/are slowly but surely reducing hours, more or less. I need a changeeee, lol. So change happens, yay.

All in all, I need to get somewhere else where it's not so stifling and there is more general acceptance and people that I can talk to. I can't talk to these people anymore and all in all, I just don't think I need to be there anymore...well, those are minor reasons I suppose...but enough to have me wanting to leave.

The house. A tiny little hole in a wall with no internet and not worth the price that we pay. So! Soon, hoping to find something more worthy of where I need to be. But, it's funny, the place I may be working at very soon is a place that is just three blocks from my house. I could WALK there. Haha. Anyway. Umm.

...life goes on, and depending on the hours, I may have to get a second night audit job in order to keep up with everything? I don't know. We shall see what we shall see.

I don't have time to give a lengthy thing here, but just an fyi to those of you who try to see me more often than I have been able to come online...the hard drive for my computer died last night and I hope to be getting a new one and getting it inside my computer within the week, but for now, you'll know why if I'm scarce. I'm sorry for the extra thing thrown in here that makes me even more unreliable than usual. Love you all. ^^

Just a quick one today. They just barely updated Stephenie Meyer's page with some pics of the cast for the Twilight movie. Click and enjoy. I think they picked some pretty good possible actors/actresses for the rest of our favorite vampires.

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So, I decided that I needed one of these things to go up here. I'm not subscribed or anything so I can't give you pretty little thumbnails of my favorite pieces of artwork(although that would be AWESOME, I know of some GREAT artists I found recently, but anyway, going on), but seeing how I am more inclined toward the stuff you can read on here and I wanted to share some of the poetry that I find across dA that I really love for some reason another...I can't share whole fictions but I can recommend those too, but poetry is just the right length so that you don't have to worry about a huge journal too much.

This one is called "Crying Inside" and written by deviant who has just written a few blurbing emotive pieces that apply to myself really well and this one I read last night fit my mood of yesterday so well, I wanted to share it with a few of you.

Out in a storm of emotion
without a single shelter
just dying, wind-tossed trees
to try and hold onto.

Hate, disappointment,
resentment, hate,
resignation, despair,
Hate myself for hating.

Honesty’s left me outdoors
Hate’s trapped me here
Trying to care for my friends
Trying to ignore myself

I’m crying inside
And this storm’s inside me.
Winds and rains and thunder.
Will the tornado on the horizon
come and sweep it all away?
How could it, when I’ll
remember it for always.

The storm leaves
splinters of trees and
compost of plants and
puddles and lakes of mud.

But mud helps trees
to heal themselves
and compost helps
things to grow.

The clouds are clearing
and light returns
rippling over mud
and illuminating trees.

And please note that it's not something depressed, but it's acknowledgement of a discouraging mood, and also that there is that acknowledgement that every cloud has a silver lining, so to speak.

I'll try to add more good writing as I find it, thanks all for reading!

Okay, so my brain just had a melt-down freak out over a fanart I saw...it was of Fruits Basket Yuki eating a strawberry and since strawberries are now forever associated with our favorite strawberry in Bleach, Ichigo Kurosaki, I was all like, WTF?!?!?!?!? And then I realized FINALLY after about ten seconds of stupid staring that it had nothing to do with that...rofl. So I decided to share my random weirdness with you all and I want to make a list of watching too much Bleach-ness. Tell me what you guys think, add your own, have fun with it!

1. Strawberries equal arrogant orange-tops.
2. Every katana you see in any anime is automatically a zanpaktou.
3. You look cross-wise at skulls...<.<
4. You want to try bean paste on bread.
5. You have a collection of accessories bearing crosses...and frequentlly try to pull a bow of some kind out of them.
6. You make frequent comments on the "reiatsu" of the general populace.
7. You yell out either "arrancar," "quincy," or "shinigami" at people you hate like shouting "witch" in the salem witch trials...usually to people you despise.
8. At the end of the last book you read, you felt unfulfilled because of the lack of Shinigami Cup Golden.
9. All of your friends are named after all of the main characters.
10. You blame every weird happening on Urahara, no matter if he's around or not...but you know he probably is. <.<;;;
11. You find parallels with one of your favorite games with the world(had a very FUNNY one I found parallels with here, someone ask and I will tell later, lol!)

Okay, my brain is melting for some reason and I need to run off and get some errands done, but I will add more later. Haha, bye!

Edit:
AND ADDED BY COMMENT BY *Obi-quiet
--You're willing to try just about anything mixed together (including onion with jello/pudding and who knows what on ice cream).
--You own a zanbaktou...
--...And it's not wooden...
--...And can pull a shikai out of it...
--...AND a bankai.
--You try to hug every black cat you see and call it "Yourichi", fully expecting it to talk back to you.
--The word hollow used in ANYTHING makes you shudder.
--You call "innder demons" "inner hollows".
--You half expect your father/family to wake you up by jumping on you or trying to beat the living tar out of you.
--You see ghosts.
--You have long, in-depth theory discussions on gigai and mod souls.
--You've been able to make it through the Bount arc at least twice.
--You wonder where Hueco Mundo fits into the whole "Heaven/Hell" thing...*scratches head*
--You've come up with a theory to the above.
--You own a green and white hat...and wear it constantly (dressed up or not).
--You yell out flower names, fully expecting said flowers to protect/heal/attack. (TSUMAKI!)
--You like to talk in a lithp.
--You can name at least 7 of the top 10 Espada's names, and their replacements...
--And/or their powers.
--You can give all of the 13 squad captain's names.
--You can give all of the 13 squad adjutant's names.
--You can name all the Shinigami on the show...
--You wonder if Isshin has a duel personality.
--You're dying to go the the shinigami academy (not literally!)
--You like working with fireworks and/or sand.
--You know exactly which squads you wouldn't join if you were a Shinigami.
--You know exactly which one you would, and why.
--Every time you hear the word "bleach" you have to stifle a giggle/laugh/snort, etc...
--You actually got all of the above.

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"Soul Society Approve Bleach: Now Removes Hollows!" ---- Nuff, said!